I ask and receive and my joy is made full.
I ask. A lot. I receive...sometimes. My joy...is it full? I have lots, but I think there's still room for more.
I've been pondering the big questions of unanswered prayer a lot lately. Seeking words adequate to describe trust when the answers aren't neatly packaged in a little box and adorned with a perfect bow.
In my own life I've gone through times of such profound pain and disappointment that I shut out, blamed, even accused the One who was my only source of hope.
We can get sad, mad, hurt, frustrated, angry, disappointed, distressed, depressed when He doesn't enter our circumstances in the way we want Him to, when it looks like He hasn't done what He promised. He promised a way to escape temptation, but I just want to escape reality.
We block Him out or say He isn't real because He doesn't dance to our tune or rescue us according to our plan.
Yet all the walls built to block out the pain of disappointment also block out the light. The hope. Even those disappointed places, especially those disappointed places, must be surrenderd to Him if I want to be filled full with joy...
So many mysteries, so many complexities, that don't fit into the neat little columns and boxes I adore. Yet I always come back to the fact that He is huge and full of love. Trustworthy. He hung the stars and keeps the planets in their orbit. He can handle the details of my life. I can trust even when things don't make sense.
He says to ask...He invites us to ask. He promises we will receive all that we need...and then some. My joy is full and when I trust that He is answering and providing all that I need. Even when it doesn't come in the package I was looking for.
And this same God who takes care of me
will supply all your needs from his glorious riches
which have been given to us in Christ Jesus
Now all glory to God our Father forever and ever!
This post is part of a series Love in a Box